"No problem. I should go. Later." Ricky hung up the phone and went about making ice cream for Natalia. He just wanted to be his best friend to be happy and he'd do anything for that.
Chapter 29 As I was heading home, so many thoughts were floating through my mind. Why did he kiss me? Why did I kiss back? Would I tell Justin? No… I couldn't tell him. I mean, Dylan was a grade A asshole but I didn't want him to die, and I knew Justin would kill him if he knew. I doubted that he would ever forgive me either. I had just proven to be like every scumbag person in his life. I really felt like shit. I mean I didn't want to lie to Justin either. I didn't know what to do at that point. I figured that maybe Ricky would have the solution to my problem. I headed off the train a few stops early and decided to walk. Mostly because I can't stand the train and couldn't wait to get off it. My car was acting like a bitch so I had no choice but to take the train to see Dylan. It was a big mistake. How stupid was I? I folded my arms over my chest and bit the inside of my cheek. I wasn't really paying attention to anything until I heard yelling coming from an alleyway. At first, I figured maybe it was cats fighting or something like that but the man yelling was Irish. I knew immediately that it was Tommy. I turned to look at the alley and saw Justin and JC holding a guy while Tommy punched him in the stomach. "You think you can fucking try to kill us? HUH? WHO FUCKING SENT YOU?!" Watching from the shadows, I bit down on my lip, curious to what was happening. Actually, I was more than curious, I was scared. Someone had tried to kill these guys and I wanted to tell myself that my Uncle had nothing to do with it, but I knew the truth. "Answer him." Justin growled at the man. Tommy sent another blow to his stomach and the man keeled over in pain. "… I won't…" The man managed to get out between coughing. "You better start fucking talking or we could just as easily blow your brains out." JC stated nonchalantly and pulled out a gun from his pants. He held the scared man with one hand and pushed the gun to his temple with the other. "You wouldn't kill me…" "Oh but we would… and we'd make sure no one would ever find the body…" Justin hissed and shoved him back against the wall. "Tell me who it was and we'll let you live… for now…" Tommy pulled out another gun from his pocket and just stared at the man. "It was Larry Lopez…" The man said nervously. JC removed the gun from his temple. "Alright boys… take care of him. Don't kill him but mess him up real good." Tommy stated. He then proceeded to watch as Justin and JC beat the crap out of the guy. They left him bloody and half-dead. This was too much for me to watch. I started running by this point, wanting to throw up. That poor guy, he didn't deserve that. I mean maybe he was a psycho killer but they should have just let him go. "Someone's there… Justin… JC GO!" Tommy had ordered them after me and I was beyond scared. I ran into a building, trying to get away from them but as I made my way up the stairs, I heard them screaming at me to stop. "IF YOU MOVE ANOTHER STEP I'LL SHOOT!" I heard JC yell from behind me. I knew he wasn't kidding. I raised my hands in the air and turned around. Justin and JC stared at me in shock. "Natalia?" Justin looked at me confused. I just half smiled and laughed nervously. "Hi…" "What the hell are you doing here?" Justin walked up the stairs to me and hugged me tightly. "I was just walking… and I saw you guys…" "The stalking roles have been reversed." Justin grinned and looked at JC. "Go help Tommy. I'll be right there." JC nodded at Justin and quickly headed down the stairs. Justin just smiled at me and kissed me softly. I kissed back but in the back of my mind I felt like the biggest whore in the world, even though I wasn't. I had always promised myself never to cheat on my boyfriend and now look what happened. The man I really cared for, the man I loved… I went and hurt him. Justin had been so great to me. What did I do? "J, we need to talk…" "Okay don't worry… let's just go talk to Tommy so he's not pissed." Justin smiled and took hold of my hand. "I'm so glad you're here." I just nodded and headed downstairs with him to Tommy. It was the first time I had seen him since the night in the limo. I smiled nervously at him and shook his and JC's hand awkwardly. "Hi Natalia… you really scared us." Tommy said, being nice. It was so weird, I was just waiting for him to scream at me. "I'm sorry, Sir. I just saw you guys and I got a little scared…" "Don't worry about it." Tommy smiled at me. "Do you mind if I ask you something?" "Not at all…" "How's Hope?" "She's doing good actually." I bit my lip, not wanting to say the wrong thing to the mob lord. "I'm glad for that…Thank you, Natalia." Tommy smiled sadly. "I should be going. Thanks for the help Justin. I'll pay you for the job tomorrow." "No problem." Justin just beamed and pulled me closer to him. "I'll be going too." JC smiled at the both of us. "See you guys later. Stay safe." "Alright… let's go to dinner and you can tell me what you have to say." I nodded at Justin and forced a smile. I had a feeling that this wasn't going to turn out good. ** Half way through dinner and hearing Justin talk about what had happened with the Lopez's. I was starting to feel sick. He was just so happy and he trusted me. I had betrayed him completely. "Justin… I need to tell you something…" "What is it?" "Promise me you won't freak out." I was almost begging him. He looked at me strangely and raised an eyebrow. "Is everything okay, baby?" "No…" "Listen… lets go for a walk and not talk about this here." Justin threw some money down on the table and the two of us exited the restaurant. We started walking in complete silence. I rubbed my arms lightly, trying to think of the best way to begin this conversation. In the end I realized there was no easy way. I had fucked up. "Justin… you know I care about you right?" "Yeah… I do. Are you breaking up with me?" Justin just looked at me confused. I shook my head. "Earlier today… I got a phone call from Dylan. He asked me to go meet him for coffee to talk… I went and I kissed him…" I could almost see the image Justin had of me, destroyed. The hurt on his face was evident but what made me want to crawl up and die was the shock. "You…kissed him?" "I'm sorry…" "Don't fucking tell me you’re sorry…" He hissed at me. "I thought you were different. I thought you would never hurt me but I was fucking wrong!" "Justin please…" I begged him, starting to cry at this point. "NO! Just don't! You fucking played me for a fool." Justin shook his head and laughed bitterly. "I would have given you anything in the world… ANYTHING! But you were just like the rest, you were just a fucking whore." "Justin, that's not true…" He turned and looked at me angrily. I wasn't really scared of him though, I knew better. "Did he fuck you, Natalia? Tell me the truth? Did you give it to him?" "It was a long time ago…he was my ex boyfriend…" "So you fucked him? You couldn't even tell me that he was your ex? You kept all this shit from me?" Justin shook his head. "Why couldn't you have opened up to me the fucking way I did?!" "Yeah Justin. I did have sex with him. It was a long time ago when we were dating and I regret giving myself to him. I wish I could have saved myself for you, but I can't change the past. I'm sorry…" "DON'T! DON'T FUCKING PLAY THE VICTIM!" Justin yelled, he let go of his grip on me. "AND EXCUSE ME JUSTIN!! HOW MANY WOMEN HAVE YOU FUCKED?! I'VE NEVER HELD IT AGAINST YOU! AND YOU KNEW I HAD SEX WITH MY EX!!" "Yeah but I didn't fucking CHEAT ON YOU!! THIS GUY IS MY GODDAMN ENEMY!! AND FOR ALL I KNOW YOU PROBABLY FUCKED HIM AGAIN. " Justin pushed me up against the wall and snaked his hand up my dress. "It must be this big fucking thrill to you to fuck a bad boy…" "Get off me Justin." I said angrily. I tried pushing him off me but he wouldn't move. "You weren't saying that last night. Did you fuck him before or after you fucked me last night?" His hand snaked underneath my panties and I had enough. I kneed him in the crotch and shoved him backwards. "FUCK YOU JUSTIN!" I said between tears. I headed down the street and hailed a taxi "Too late for that. I’ve done that many fucking times!" Justin called after me. I got into the taxi in tears and told the man to drive me home. I saw Justin glaring at me from the street. I wanted to throw up. I closed my eyes tightly and couldn't wait to get home and talk to Ricky. ** "Ricky… I messed up…I messed up so badly…" I said between tears. Ricky and I sat in his bedroom and he rocked my back and forth in his arms. "Shh… you didn't do it on purpose…you love him…" "He doesn't think that…" I sobbed loudly. Ricky rubbed my back and sighed. "That's because you never told him…" "I wasn't ready to tell him…I'm still not…" "Natalia… breathe baby…if it's meant to be he'll come to his senses." My best friend soothed me. "He was just so cruel to me…he made me feel like a whore." "Cause he was angry. People do stupid things when they're angry." I closed my eyes and leaned my head against his chest. Ricky always knew the right things to say. I was so glad I had him in my life. "I'll make you some ice cream, how bout that? You just lay down and try to calm down okay?" I nodded and half-smiled at my best friend. I grabbed his Winnie the Pooh stuffed animal and cuddled it. I closed my eyes tightly and wished that these past few months would be a bad dream. I wished I'd wake up and find my life just as it was on that January day. ** Ricky stood in the kitchen with Natalia's cell phone in hand. He dialed Justin's cell phone number from the house line was greeted by a grumpy HELLO. "Justin… this is Ricky Seaver, Natalia's friend." "What the fuck do you want?" Justin grumbled back. "I wanted to talk to you, because you really hurt Natalia, and that's fucked up. But I'm not gonna get on your case for that. Natalia cares about you and I know she regrets hurting you, but you don't know the story of Dylan Morelli." "What do you mean, story?" "They went out for a little over a year. Natalia lost her virginity to him and not too much later he left her. She thought they were going to end up together and before she met you, she would constantly cry over him. He broke her heart." "Did she love him?" "No, but she was attached to him and he used her. Dylan has control over Natalia because of their relationship. She trusted him and he used her again to get back at you. Don't let them win." "You know the story about the Lopez's?" Justin asked curiously. "Yeah I do. They want to keep you guys apart. Don't let her go because I think you're the best thing that has ever happened to her." "That really means a lot coming from her best friend. Thank you… but I just never thought she'd do that." Justin stated with a sigh. "How can I trust her?" "Natalia would never want to hurt you… I think she loves you…" Ricky said, knowing perfectly well that she did, but he didn't want to be the one to say it. He didn't mind implying it though. "Really? You think so?" His voice had a hint of excitement and Ricky smiled. Justin really did love her. "I do." "But she probably hates me. I was an asshole to her." "She doesn't hate you. Just try to talk to her…but not yet. Let me calm her down a little." Ricky stated and half-smiled. "Thanks…I really appreciate it."
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