Nyah and JC had a relationship in the past... Now she's back with a surprise.
But, something happens in their lives now that the present became into a little hell between them.
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1. Chapter 1 by Wantan
2. Chapter 2 by Wantan
3. Chapter 3 by Wantan
4. Chapter 4 by Wantan
5. Chapter 5 by Wantan
6. Chapter 6 by Wantan
7. Chapter 7 by Wantan
8. Chapter 8 by Wantan
9. Chapter 9 by Wantan
10. Chapter 10 by Wantan
11. Chapter 11 by Wantan
12. Chapter 12 by Wantan
13. Chapter 13 by Wantan
14. Chapter 14 by Wantan
15. Chapter 15 by Wantan
16. Chapter 16 by Wantan
17. Chapter 17 by Wantan
18. Chapter 18 by Wantan
19. Chapter 19 by Wantan
20. Chapter 20 by Wantan
"Autora" means Author... remember my first language is spanish =)
Chapter 1
August 15th, 2000
Orlando, Florida
13:04 p.m.
JC walked slowly to the door of the apartment to see who was looking for him. When he opened the door he found a familiar face in front of him.
"Hello Joshua…"
"Hi" he said surprised, "what are you doing here?"
"May I come in?" the woman asked
"Yeah, yeah, of course, come in" he said letting her go inside the apartment, "what can I do for you?"
"I need to talk to you about something important"
JC’s attention was only the little kid who was with her.
"Before we speak… do you have anything for Matt… I mean… so he can play meanwhile…"
"Yes… sure… I have some teddy bears and some stuffs…"
"Awesome"
"Follow me"
13:12 p.m.
JC and the woman went to living room and sat on a couch.
"Wow, Nyah… it’s been long, long time…"
"It’s been years, Joshua"
"You’re right… hmm… so… what you want to talk about?"
"Oh yes…hmm… well, is just… I need your help"
"And… how can I help you?"
"With… money" Nyah said looking down
"And… why do you ask me that? … I mean… you know I will, but why?"
"Well… I know you can help me… and… considering that you and I still have…" she stopped and stared him, "you can’t imagine how hard to me is to tell you this"
"Just say it…"
"Well… considering that we still have something that will never break us apart…" JC interrupted her.
"Wait… wait… what do you mean? What thing is that?"
"Matt…" Nyah said talking about the little child.
September 10th, 1994
Orlando, Florida
16:54 pm
"I’m glad you came to see me" JC said hugging her girlfriend
"Yeah... I’m very happy to see you too"
"I missed you so much, Nyah"
"And I missed you too…" she said before he kissed him
JC put his arms on Nyah’s waist and she put her hands behind his head. They were both 18 years old. They met each other long time ago... more than 8 years.
"I love you…” JC said while they we’re kissing and he closed her to him
“What are you doing, Josh?” she asked falling apart
“Why?” he asked laughing
“I’m not silly, Josh, I know what you want” she whispered
“Then let’s go to my room…” he said kissing her neck.
Nyah was two days with JC in Orlando, then she came back to Maryland.
October 16th, 1994
Bowie, Maryland
13:15 pm
Nyah got into her house en rested her body in the wall. She felt really bad and she was dizzy. Her mother, Samantha, went out of the kitchen when she heard the door and saw Nyah like that.
“Nyah? Are you ok?”
“Yeah, is just… I got a little dizzy…”
“You got dizzy?”
“Yeah… but don’t worry, I’m fine… is dad at home?”
“No…”
“Can we talk about something? It’s important”
“Sure… let’s go to the kitchen”
She had to tell her mother what was going on, who else could she tell her? She was not only her mother, she was her friend too, and Nyah wasn’t scared of telling her what was happening. They entered to the kitchen and sat.
“Mom, I’m pregnant”
Chapter 2
October 23th, 1994
Bowie, Maryland
15:55 pm
“Are you sad?” Nyah asked while they were walking on the street
“Kind of… I wanted to get back here, because of you... but, in the other hand... i enjoyed so much being there on the MMC, you know” JC said sadly.
“But you can’t have everything in life, Josh”
“Yeah, I know…” he said looking down, “but it’s so sad that it’s over”
“But you will always have those memories in your heart”
“Yea... the MMC will always be in my heart... and so are you” he said staring at her, “let’s go have an ice cream?”
“Alright”
16:40 pm
“So... are we going out tonight?” JC asked
“Yeah, pick me up at 9 pm…”
“Ok…”
“Josh, I need to talk to you about something important”
“What happened?”
“I’ll talk to you tonight…”
“Alright… I love you” he said before kissing her.
“See you later…” Nyah said before she got into her house
JC crossed the street, where his house was, but he didn’t got in, he sat down on the sidewalk and looked Nyah’s house. Meanwhile in Nyah’s house…
“Mom... I’m home!” she said leaving her purse on a chair
“Oh!! So finally decide to come home, young lady!” his father said going downstairs.
"Hi…" she said a little bit scared because of his voice
Peter, Nyah’s father, took her daughter by her wrist. Meanwhile, Samantha was taking out the car. JC noticed this, but stood there for a moment, then he crossed the street again. After a few seconds, Peter went out the house with Nyah.
"Let me go!! What are you doing?" Nyah asked to his father
"We’re leaving Maryland"
Peter forced her to go inside the back seat and then he closed the door. JC came to front him.
"What are you doing with Nyah?!" JC asked mad
Peter looked him with anger and pushed him.
"You’ll never get close to my daughter again!! Never again!!!"
He pushed him again even stronger and this time JC fell to the floor. Then Peter got in the car and started driving. JC stood up, but the only thing he could saw was the car getting away.
Samantha told Peter accidentally that Nyah was pregnant, and Peter wanted to go immediately. He didn’t want JC near her daughter again, so he had almost everything packed, so when she came back, they will leave the city.
February 8th, 1995
Bowie, Maryland
11: 24 am
JC was not going out unless it was necessary, he had been very sad because the whole thing with Nyah, but he did not know that from this moment his life was going to change completely
"Josh" Karen said coming inside his room, "you have a phone call"
"Is it Nyah?" He asked from under his sheets
Her mother sighted, walked to his bed and took the sheets off.
"Josh, you can’t still be like that because of Nyah, now pick up the phone, I think it’s important"
Karen went out of the room and stood with Roy listening.
"Hello…" JC said picking up.
"JC?"
JC? Nobody call him JC in the town, that was his name in the Mickey Mouse Club. But, who was this guy?
"Yes, who is this?"
"Justin" the 14 years old answered
"Timberlake?"
"Yeah"
"He…hello… what’s up kiddo?"
"I’m calling you for something really, really huge and important... I wanted to know if you’re interested to participate on a band"
"A band?"
"Yes, you’ll, a guy named Chris Kirkpatrick called me... I know him from some auditions and he told me he was making a boy band... he want me to be in the band, and he need 3 more guys, and I told him about you, he told me to call you, so... that’s what I’m doing"
"Well…"
"You wanna be part of it?"
"I don’t know… I think it will be better if started studying something, you know, a career…"
Roy and Karen opened the door in that moment.
"Joshua, can we speak a little moment?"
"Justin, wait a moment" He put the phone down, "what happened, dad?"
"Look... Justin told me why he was calling you, me and your mother don’t want to push to say yes or no, it is totally your decision, but I don’t want that in your future, you know, when you’re forty or something... you say... ‘I wish I would try...’, ok?"
"Sure, dad" he picked up the phone again, "Justin?"
"Yep, I’m here"
"You know what... I change my mind... I’m in"
Chapter 3
August 15th, 2000
Orlando, Florida
13:05 pm
"I knew it" JC said smiling, "I knew he was a relative"
"What do you mean? How could you knew?" Nyah asked surprised
"When I saw him, I have a weird feeling"
"I see..."
“So... that was the important thing you were going to tell me that day you left the city...”
“Yeah... but... I didn’t left the city... my father forced me”
“I know... so... how did you find my apartment?" JC asked changing the subject
"My mother used to work on a radio station, they help me find you"
"I see"
"But…" she spoke again a little bit mad because he change the subject, "You didn’t let me finish"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean why I came here"
"You need some money, no problem… I’ll rent you an apartment near here…"
"Please let me explain..."
"What do you want to explain?"
"I don’t want you to think that I came here for your fame, or your money, I just did it for Matt"
"Don’t worry, I know you’re not like that... and you’ll never do anything like that"
"Let me explain…"
"Fine, explain"
Nyah sighted.
"You’ll see… a few weeks ago… my mother had… an accident… so... I had to come here"
"Is she ok?"
"She… my mom… she... died, Joshua"
"Oh… Nyah… I’m so sorry…" he said grabbing her hand.
"Don’t worry… its hard... but I’m getting used to…"
"It should be hard… besides; it was so soon… it’s not easy to get over"
"I’m worried about Matt, he still doesn’t know... and he loves her so much"
"I see"
"That’s why... I need you to love him too…"
"Nyah... Don’t worry… while he is here... he will be the most happiest kid in the world"
"Thanks, Joshua; you can’t imagine how much I appreciate this"
"Don’t worry anymore… you have to be calm and peaceful with all this… now... tell me something, does Matt know... that I’m his father?"
Nyah nodded.
"Cool… this is so exciting to me… Nyah… why you didn’t call me before?"
"I didn’t need your help, my mother was working and she brought the money, I couldn’t leave Matt alone besides I don’t have a career or something... you know, to work on something…"
"But… you didn’t care that Matt didn’t see his father?"
"Yes it matters to me, Joshua"
"So?"
"Matt knows perfectly who you are, he had seen your pictures, and I told him you are his father… and when he asked me where were you... I just said you were working and you were really busy... so we could not going to see you"
"That was hard... and a little bit selfish, don’t you think?"
"I know… but I couldn’t come here and tell you, hey, here’s your son... I didn’t want to ruin your life when you were getting all this success..."
"That wouldn’t ruined my life... probably that would make me stronger, Nyah"
"I’m sorry…"
"It’s ok... let’s go see Matt" he said smiling
As Nyah said, Matt knew exactly who JC was. Matt was very cute and very outgoing, so he didn’t have any problem with JC, at least for now.
22:30 pm
JC was making some coffee in the kitchen, the telephone rang.
"Hello?"
"Hi C"
"Hey, Justin"
"Yeah... Johnny is hating you so much, you didn’t call him?”
"No"
"Then why you didn’t went to the reunion today?"
"Damn it! I totally forgot it…"
"Yeah, I can see… you’ll have to give him a really good excuse"
"I’ll tell him the truth… today something happened Justin... something that made me forget everything…"
"Really? What happened?"
"I’ll tell you tomorrow, we still have to go tomorrow, right?"
"Of course"
"Ok, see you tomorrow"
"Alright, bye!"
"Bye!"
Nyah came into the kitchen in that moment. JC and her stared each other.
"What are you doing awake?" he asked
"I’m thirsty, I’ll drink some water"
"Ooh... go ahead"
Nyah pick up a glass, JC spoke.
"I’m very impressed, Nyah…"
"Why?"
"How you have raised Matt, he’s humble, nice... you did a god job, sweetie"
"Thanks"
"Hey… I won’t be here during the day, I’ll wake up early, I have to go to the studio, I’ll be here for dinner"
"What time you leave?"
"About 9"
"Ok…"
"Ok, see you tomorrow, sweetie" he said before kissing her forehead
"Yeah, ok"
It's kinda naughty on the beggining... Hope you like this chapter... =)
Chapter 4
August 16th, 2000
Orlando, Florida
02:35 am
JC was on his bed with his eyes closed. He felt a hand caressing his face. He opened his eyes right away and saw Nyah in front of him.
"Can I sleep here with you?" she asked in a whisper
JC nodded. Nyah got inside the sheets. When she did it, JC needed to hug her, when he did it, Nyah reached for his lips and kissed him tenderly; when she kissed he opened his mouth and let her tongue get inside his mouth, and the kiss became wild. Nyah started to take her clothes off while JC took off his boxers desperately. They moved and Nyah was on top of him. Damn! What were they doing?! Nyah have just arrived there, and they were having sex already?! How could that be! Were they this weak?! JC closed his eyes and kept moving under Nyah’s body. From one moment to another the alarm of the cell phone started to sound. JC opened his eyes when he heard it, he looked everywhere, he was alone...
"So... it was a dream…" he mumble
He got up, took a shower, got dressed and went to the kitchen to eat something.
"I think I’m having problems with my imagination…" JC thought
A few minutes later, Nyah entered to the kitchen. When JC saw her he got nervous, because the dream he has last night wasn’t common.
"Something’s wrong?" Nyah asked when she saw him.
"No, no, nothing…" he said putting the cup on the table.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, yeah… completely" he said before he drank of his coffee.
"You look… nervous… or worried…"
"Nervous? No… Worried? Maybe…" He looked his watch, "Yeah… pretty worried, ‘cause I’m really late… haha… and that’s not funny… ok, I’ll better get going… see you"
JC put the cup on the table again, but this time the cup fell to the floor because he was too nervous.
"Damn it…" JC said bending down
"Leave it there… I’ll clean it, Joshua"
"Thanks…"
Nyah smiled and laugh a little bit. Later that day, JC was on the studio.
"Hey JC" Justin said
"Hey"
"Can you tell me what happened yesterday? I’m dying here"
"Don’t be so curious… you’ll know, but first I need to talk to Johnny"
"Damn, ok... whatever"
After awhile, everybody was waiting JC’s excuse for not coming to the studio the day before. All of them were curious about this “good” thing that happened to him.
"Well, JC, I’m listening" Johnny said
"We... We’re WE... you know" Justin interrupted, but he decided to shut up when saw the killer eyes Johnny had.
"Ok, you’ll, yesterday afternoon, someone knock at my door, I opened, obviously and it was a friend from youth, and she brought a surprise for me"
"But, why you didn’t bring her? I wouldn’t mind if she was here" Johnny said
"Is... that surprise she brought... it kinda made forget I have to come here"
"Ok, ok... what was that big surprise?" Johnny asked.
"Yeah it’s a big surprise... its five years old"
"Five… years old...?" Johnny asked again... this time a little bit worried
"Wait a minute; I don’t get it, what kind of surprise was that?" Justin asked confused, "It was a dog? A cat?"
"Oh my God Justin… you’re so stupid" Lance said with a hand in his head
"Justin, the girl who came to see me was my girlfriend a few years ago… and yesterday she went to my place and told some things that had happened in her life, but she didn’t came alone…-" Justin interrupted him.
"She came with the dog"
"No, with…-" he interrupted again
"I knew it was a cat…"
"Oh Jesus… he’s an idiot…" Lance said again
"It’s not a cat either, Justin! She came with a kid, and it’s my son"
"No, no… you gotta be kidding me" Johnny said.
"I’m not kidding, Johnny, that’s why I didn’t came yesterday"
"But can’t be"
"Yes it can"
"Are you sure it’s your son?"
"I’m completely sure, Johnny"
"Ok, well… I want the DNA test… I won’t believe it if I don’t have them"
"But Johnny…-" JC said, Johnny interrupted him and did not let him finish.
"Now let’s go to work"
After all his work JC finally arrived to his apartment. He saw Nyah reading a magazine, and Matt was watching TV.
"Hey" JC said sitting on a couch
"Hi…" Nyah answered
"Daddy, you’re here!" Matt running to him and hugging him
"Hi kiddo, how are you?" he said putting the child on his lap.
"I’m fine"
"Good" He stared at Nyah, "Nyah, you know, I was thinking we could go out tomorrow... you know... the three of us, ‘cause I’m free, you want to?"
"Hmm… Yeah... sure…"
"Hey, the other thing I wanted to tell you, about the apartment that I was gonna rent you…-" Nyah interrupted him.
"Oh, yeah, whenever you want"
"No, no… I was thinking..."
"What?"
"Well, you’ll see… You know exactly how my work is… and... If rent you an apartment I probably would not have too much time to see Matt"
"So?"
"I want you to stay here" he said staring at Matt
Nyah looked him a little surprised, she never expect that JC was going to asked her to live with him.
"We can make some changes in the room you’re sleeping" JC said, "So, do you want that?" he asked looking at her.
"I guess… If it’s not a problem to you"
"Don’t worry; it’s not a problem… at all…"
After awhile, Nyah put Matt to bed, then she came back to the living room to talk with JC again. She sat in the same place she was before, but when she did it, JC stood up and sat next to her.
"Joshua, are you sure you don’t mind we’re here?"
"I don’t mind… listen, I’m so happy with Matt, the only thing I want is spend time with him, that’s why I want you to be here…"
"Maybe it will a problem with your girlfriend… or I don’t know… the girl are you dating…?"
"I’m not dating, and I don’t have a girlfriend" he said smiling, "So... that’s not a problem either"
"Ok…"
"Tomorrow we can go to the Mall, you know, there’s a kids section, and they have a lot games and stuffs, Matt will love it" He looked at her, "What you think?"
"Yes... I guess it’ll be ok…"
"Nyah, what’s wrong? Is something bothering you?"
"Is just… why you’re being so nice with me and Matt…"
"And why you complain about that?"
"I didn’t came here to live with your money"
"You’re not gonna live with my money, Nyah, you’re gonna live with me"
"Is the same"
"No, it’s not… I just want to share what I have with you two"
"I don’t need you to share with me" she said staring at him
JC grinned.
"C’mon, Nyah, I’m will spend my money only in stupid things, I prefer to spend it on Matt"
"Yeah, you said it... him, not me, Joshua"
"Don’t be so silly, sweetie, listen, tomorrow we’ll go to the mall, have lunch together, and then we can buy some toys for him"
"Hey… I don’t want you to spoil him"
"Don’t worry, I will not, I’ll just buy him some toys" he looked the TV, "by the way, I had a little problem"
"What happened?"
"You’ll see… I don’t have any doubt that Matt is my son, I know what we did… but, my manager... well... he doesn’t believe it”
"He thinks I’m lying?"
"Yeah, and we want a DNA test, I guess there’ll be no problem"
"Of course not, I haven’t lied to you, I know Matt is your son”
"You seem pretty sure"
"I am... because I haven’t been with anyone after you"
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Chapter 7
November 8th, 2000
Los Angeles, California
17:45 pm
"Damn it… I’m so nervous…" JC said looking his clothes in the mirror, "besides… all the fuckin’ comments the press had publish after I announced I was getting married…"
"Relax 'C… it’s just a wedding" Justin said quietly
"That’s why I’m nervous… she probably wants it to be perfect… and I’m just hoping everything is ok…"
"It is ‘C… just don’t worry anymore…" he said
Meanwhile.
"My God… you look so beautiful Nyah"
"Thanks Heather…"
"Josh is so happy with all this… well… we all are…"
"Tell me about it…"
"Are you nervous?"
"Just a little…"
"Relax… nothing can be wrong"
They ceremony ended with no problem, everything was done, Joshua Scott Chasez and Nyah Simone Deaver became husband and wife.
23:35 pm
"Nyah… I have a present for you…" he said giving her a black velvet box.
"Josh… you didn’t have to do this…" she said taking the box.
"I hope you like it…" he said kissing her cheek.
Nyah opened the box. It was a silver bracelet with little black diamonds.
"Josh… it’s beautiful…" she said looking at him, "I’m sorry… I didn’t get you a present…"
"It doesn’t matter… you’re my wife now… that’s the best gift ever"
"Oh no, wait… I have something for you"
"Really? What is it?" he asked.
Nyah took JC’s hand and put it in her belly. JC looked at her.
"What’s the surprise?" he asked excited
"I hope you don’t mind having another member in the Chasez family…"
JC smiled.
"I don’t mind at all" he said.
She smiled too.
"You know what Nyah? This is the happiest day in my life, I am with the woman I love, I have Matt… and we have a son coming"
"I just have a month…"
"It doesn’t matter… it will born anyways…"
July 3rd, 2001
Orlando, Florida
11: 10 am
Nyah was with Matt in the living room while JC was taking a shower, because he had to go to the studio.
"Matt… please don’t do that" Nyah said to the kid when he opened the piano.
"Mommy… But… I wanna play"
"You don’t know how to do it… your father is gonna be angry if he sees you there… just play something else"
"Ok…"
Nyah stood up to take Matt to his room, but when she did it a contraction came. She put her hand on her huge belly. It was time. She had to go to the hospital. She couldn’t resist it… it was the same pain when she was about to give birth Matt. She sat again. Matt went to her.
"What’s wrong mommy?" Matt asked
"Go to my room… tell your father we must go to the hospital…"
20:16 pm
"How do you feel?” JC asked caressing Nyah’s cheek.
"Good… and happy…" she said, "did you see her again?"
"Yes, our Katie Chasez it’s beautiful"
Nyah smiled. Both of them were totally happy.
"Where is Matt?"
"He’s with my parents; you want him to come in?"
"Please"
"I’ll call him"
May 2nd, 2002
Orlando, Florida
21:00 pm
"Nyah… I hired a nanny for the kids, Joey recommended her… so we can go out tonight"
"Am… I don’t know… what if something happens to Katie?"
"Ah c’mon… Joey said Kyra was really good at babysitting, there’ll be no problem…"
"Ok… fine… let’s go out tonight…"
"Ok…" JC looked at her, "you don’t seem so happy about it"
"Josh… Katie isn’t even a year… and we don’t know her"
"Joey recommended her"
"Are you gonna keep saying that?"
"Yes… I will…"
"Ok… you know what… let’s go out… but I’m warning you… If something happens to her, I swear I’ll kill you"
"Fine… fine"
Chapter 8
September 13th, 2002
Orlando, Florida
19:48 pm
JC entered the apartment; he was tired of working. He saw Nyah was with Katie in the living room; he went there and sat on the couch.
"Hey" JC said.
"Hi…" Nyah answered
JC sighted.
"How was work?" JC asked to his wife.
"Fine, thanks…"
"I’m glad you’re working Nyah"
Ella looked at him.
"Isn’t it obvious?" she asked standing up and taking Katie on her arms.
JC raise an eyebrow. Something was wrong. What was the problem? A few days ago she started acting weird with him. He followed her to the children’s bedroom. She was putting Katie in her cradle.
"What’s wrong, sweetie?" he said putting his arms on her waist.
"Nothing… I’m fine, don’t worry… I’m just tired" she said.
Then she left the room, but JC followed her again, he wasn’t convinced with her answer.
"I don’t believe you…" JC said
"Just leave me alone, ok?"
"Where is Matt?" he asked trying to change the subject.
"He’s at Kirk’s house"
"Is someone going to bring him home?"
"No, you have to pick him up"
"Geez thanks your saying it before" he said sarcastically
“What… you don’t have something to do, do you?"
"Not for now… I’ll just pick him up"
"Thanks" she said entering their room.
July 3rd, 2003
Los Angeles, California
16:16 pm
"Nyah… is something wrong?" Karen asked.
"No… it’s nothing"
"Did you fight with Josh for some reason? I’ve seen that you’re a little bit strange with him"
"No… it’s nothing… I mean… I’m just tired of work… it’s kinda harsh"
"Well… but now you have some free days…"
"Yeah… finally…"
23:45 pm
"Nyah, what’s wrong?" JC asked hugging her from her back
They were in bed.
"Nothing, I’m just tired… that’s all…" she said without turning around, then she free herself from JC’s arms, "Let me get some sleep, ok?"
"Sorry…"
November 8th, 2003
Orlando, Florida
09:25 am
"Happy anniversary, honey" JC said sitting in the bed with a tray.
Nyah moved a little bit. It was so early… and what did he just did? Wake her up…
"What…?" she said staring at him.
"I brought you some breakfast… today it’s our 3rd anniversary" he said smiling
"I’m not hungry" she said covering with the sheets.
"But… what is it?"
"I said I’m not hungry!" she uncovered herself, "Now take that away"
JC didn’t look at her, he was really sad because of her reaction. Actually he did not understand what was happening with her, since a year or maybe a little bit more, the relationship wasn’t the same. JC was trying to make things right and get a better relationship, but nothing was working, she didn’t want it…
August 16th, 2004
Orlando, Florida
13:04 pm
"Dad… can we go out today?" Matt asked, "The four of us…" he added.
"I don’t think your mother wants to, you know she’s not in the mood…"
"Are you gonna keep fighting?"
"Matt… I don’t fight with her; you know that… she’s the one who always made an scandal for something so little"
Nyah and Katie entered the kitchen in that moment.
"Matt, sit down" Nyah said while she sat Katie in a higher chair.
"Yes, mom"
"Mommy… cam we go to the parc tuday?" Katie asked with the little knowledge of words she had.
"No, sweetie, we can’t" she said putting a glass in front of Matt.
"I’ll take them to the park" JC said.
Nyah stared at him intimidating.
"Where do you wanna go my little princess?" JC asked to her daughter.
"To the parc…" she said.
Nyah put the dishes on the table, but just for her and the children. JC sat and then she did it.
"Nyah… you forget my dish…" JC said.
"You can serve yourself, can you?"
He stood up and grabbed a plate, and then he served his food and sat again. She was mad; at least, that was what JC thought.
"Nyah, what time you went out of work?" he asked trying to enable a conversation.
"Do you care?"
"Of course, we can’t leave the children alone"
"At 8"
"I have to go the studio at five"
"Then how are you planning to take them to the park?"
"They want to"
"But you have to work"
"I’ll take them after lunch"
"And then"
"I was thinking to bring them to Kyra’s house… or you prefer she comes here?"
"Actually… I don’t care… do whatever you want, Joshua"
Then she kept eating.
Ok... I already finish the story... bu I'll add chapters slowly... =)
Just hope you like it... here's chapter 9!!
Chapter 10
March 25th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
16:30 pm
"Matt, are you ready?" Nyah asked
"Yes mom... c’mon" the kid said grabbing his backpack
"Matt" JC said calling him.
"Yes dad?" Matt said looking at him
"You wanna join me?"
"I’m going out with mom”
"Where?" he asked.
Nyah stared at JC
"We’re going to the mall" he said
"I’m going to the pool with Katie, Chris and Justin, you wanna come?"
"Uhmm…" Matt doubt, then he looked at his mother
"Do you want to go?" JC asked again
"He’s coming with me!" Nyah said to JC.
"I’m not talking with you, Nyah"
"Matt is coming with me!" she said getting close to him
"That’s up to him"
"It’s my son"
"It’s my son too" JC argued
"I raised him... you weren’t there" Nyah said in her defense
"But I gave him everything he have" JC answered mad
"And what did you gave him? Money?"
"Just shut up!!!" the kid screamed desperate.
JC and Nyah looked at him, they have never seen him acted that way.
"Stop fighting… are you ever gonna stop that?! I’m sick of it!! I’m not going to the mall and I’m not going to the stupid pool!!!" he said walking to his room.
"Matt…" Nyah muttered, then she stared at JC, "You see what you did!"
"I did? Please… Nyah, the only person in this house that cause problems is you…"
"Me?... I’m not the one who was unfaithful and ruined it all!"
"Stop saying that fuckin shit! Damn it woman!!!" JC said going to the living room.
19:21 pm
"But, why don’t you just signed the divorce papers?" Chris asked
"’Cause I don’t want to divorce… I love Nyah… but I don’t know what to do anymore... she doesn’t believe me…"
"You made a huge mistake, dude, now pay the consequences… You know, when Britney left me the second time... I felt so miserable" Justin said
"You should never get back with her in the first place, and second... this is a total different situation... Nyah is not famous... and I haven’t left her..."
"Well... If you love her so much... then prove her that" Justin added.
"I don’t know how..." JC said staring at Katie.
"Why don’t asked her out and speak seriously about this?" Chris suggested
"I don’t think she would say yes… she treats me really bad, besides, the kids, you know…"
"Justin and I can take care of them" Chris said.
"Of course, we can help you… whatever you need, man" Justin added.
"I’ll try… and I’ll let you know what she says"
"No problem…" Chris said.
"Well, I’ll better get going… I don’t want to hear her scream again because I’m bringing Katie so late," JC said taking Katie in his arms, "see you guys, bye!"
there you have... chapter 12 and 13... more to come soon... =)
This chapter is because I rated the story as NC-17... so... nothing... xD... just that!
Chapter 14
June 21st, 2005
Orlando, Florida
02:17 am
Nyah moved a little bit and opened her eyes slowly. Everything was dark. An arm was around her waist, she turned around fast, JC woke up with her move. She stared at him.
"What happened?" she asked
"You passed out…" JC answered
Nyah sighted. JC touch her cheek softly with his fingers, she looked at his eyes. She needed so badly. JC got closer to her, then he grabbed her face with his hands, he touch her nose with his, and after that he kissed gently in her lips, she accepted the kiss and opened her mouth, JC introduce his tongue in her mouth, the kiss was becoming passionate now.
"I love you…" he said with a low voice
"I love you too… and I’m so sorry…" she said.
Then JC kissed her again until she sharply broke the kiss.
"The kids…" Nyah said scared.
JC smiled.
"The kids are fine…" he said quietly, “they are fine… I took care of them”.
She smiled this time, she finally had forgiven him. Then they kissed again, passionate, needed… Their bodies went closer. The kiss was deeper now, their tongues were together. He started touching her legs… After a few seconds they looked each other. They’ve never looked each other that way… she was so perfect for him… and so was he for her.
"Josh…" she whispered.
"What…?" he said tenderly.
"I want you…"
JC smiled and hugged her tight.
"I wanna be yours again…" she said hugging him.
JC just looked at her and smiled. Then they kissed again, JC put one of his hand on her hair and started pulling it softly. He started kissing her neck and she moaned.
“Please don’t tease me… I need you…”
He smiled again and she did it to, meanwhile he didn’t waste time and unbuttoned her bra, took off her underwear and his boxers. He took one of her breasts and put it in his mouth… she moaned when she felt his tongue circling his nipple.
“God… Josh… please… don’t do this me…”
“Do what?” he said reaching her face
“I need you… now…”
“How much?” he said pressing his erection against her.
“Please… I want you inside me…”
He smiled and kissed her lips again. He put his body on top of her opening her legs… he slowly introduce her while they were kissing. She gave a little moan when he did it. They haven’t done it since so long… he missed her so much.
“You feel so good, baby…” he said moving on top of her
“Don’t stop, Josh…”
He kept moving on top of her with a slow rhythm, she moaned and said his name repeatedly… After a few moments she felt the orgasm in all her body… JC noticed it and started moving a little faster.
“It’s my turn now…” he said in her ear
She grabbed his face with her hands and kissed him wildly, she put her tongue on his mouth… and soon he also collapsed…
“I love you Nyah… and I always will…” he said in her ear
“I love you too Josh…”
Then they kissed again.
10:16 am
"Wake up…" Matt said while Katie opened the door.
JC moved a little when he heard Matt’s voice and woke up immediately, then he kissed Nyah so she woke up too.
"What… what is it…?" Nyah asked going closer to JC.
"Wake up, sweetie…" JC said kissing her.
Nyah felt someone else in the bed and look. It was Katie and Matt.
"Hi mom" Matt said
"Matt, honey… are you ok? Please forgive me…" Nyah said immediately a little bit worried.
"Don’t worry mom… I’m fine" Matt smiled.
Nyah sighted in relief. JC took Nyah’s hand and she stared at him.
"Nyah… yesterday… I was so worried about you when you passed out, so I called a doctor and we’re going to the hospital today"
"Ok… no problem…" she said.
13:04 pm
JC, Nyah, Matt y Katie were in the hospital. The doctor walked out of his office and called Nyah.
"You wanna go alone?" JC asked Nyah.
"No… please go with me…"
"Ok… you two… don’t move… and Matt, please take care of Katie" JC said.
JC and Nyah entered to the doctor’s office.
"Hi Joshua" the doctor said to a JC
"Hi Dr. Johnson, how are you?" he sad shaking the doctor’s hand
"Fine, thanks. You?"
"I’m good"
"And the rest of the guys?"
"Well… you know… over here, over there…" he said smiling
"So, you’re Nyah…" the doctor said to her
"Yes…" she answered.
"You know… I know Joshua since… so long… 1994 I think…"
"Yeah… he told me something about it…"
The doctor examined her, took her pulse, took her pressure, etc. JC was just listening the doctor’s comments. Then they sat again.
"Ok… I’ll make some questions… its part of the routine…"
"Go ahead…" Nyah said.
"Alright… have you or had you any serious disease?"
"No… not that I know…"
"When was the last time you went to the doctor for a medical checkup?"
"Hmm… actually I don’t remember… I’m a healthy person, so…"
"Ok… When was your last period?"
"Hmm… about two weeks ago…"
"Do you use any medicine? Pressure or something?"
"No… sometimes I took pills for sleep… but, nothing more…"
"Ok… do you smoke?"
"No"
"Do you drink?"
"Just in some occasions…"
"How often?"
"Just… special occasions…"
"And that’s…?"
"Hmm… I don’t know… every two weeks…"
"Ok… do you use drugs?"
"No…"
"Ok… Well… you’re missing a couple of exams… you have to take some blood tests, so you have to go to room 415 in 4th floor"
"Ok…"
"When are the exams ready?" JC asked
"Next week"
Chapter 15
June 26th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
19:35 pm
They ended their dinner, Nyah started washing the dishes, while JC was with Katie in the bathroom she could wash her teeth, Matt was playing on the computer.
Nyah opened the fridge and took a beer, she drank it all. JC entered the kitchen and watched her, she left the empty bottle on the table and she was looking for something in the fridge. He stood there quiet and spied her. Nyah took another bottle of beer and drank it all again.
June 30th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
15:26 pm
"Ok kids, get in the car" Nyah said opening the door.
"Yeah… we’re going" Matt said getting inside
After a few minutes they were in the hospital, JC had to pick up Nyah’s exams to see if she had something or not. The doctor opened the door of his office.
"JC, I want to talk to you a moment" The doctor said to JC.
"Hmm… yeah, sure, I’ll be right there" He looked at Nyah, "I’ll be right back"
JC entered the office and sat in front of the desk, the doctor stared at him, he was a little worried and JC noticed that and he wanted to know immediately what was happening.
"What is it, doctor?" JC asked
"Well… I want to talk about Nyah…"
"Well… tell me… What happened? There’s something wrong with the exams?"
"No… well… the results… their are not so good… she is not ok"
"What do you mean? What does she have?"
"Joshua, tell me something… did she lost a relative? Or… I don’t know… Did you have some troubles with her?... Did something happen to her that could cause her a depression?"
"Well… yeah, we had some troubles before… a lot… but not anymore… we’re ok now…"
"Anyway… I am really sorry to tell you this, but, there’s a 95% probably that Nyah has some serious addiction troubles…"
"Addiction…?"
"Yes, Joshua, I am afraid that Nyah is alcoholic"
JC looked down, he knew that, he had been spying her, but now he was completely sure about it.
"JC, I recommend you to talk to her, she should be on a rehabilitation center, where a psychiatrist and technical personnel could see her and treat her…"
"But… I can’t… I can’t have her away from me"
"That it’s a selfish thought from you… she needs rehab"
JC sighted.
"Take this" The doctor said giving him a card, "This rehab center works with this hospital, here is the address and the phone number"
JC took the card and read it. Then he looked at the doctor.
"Do you want to talk to her?" JC asked
"It’s not necessary" Dr. Johnson said, "But you should…"
"I know…"
JC went off of the office and saw Nyah with the kids… they were laughing, the three of them. Was really that woman an alcoholic? It just doesn’t seem it. Nyah looked at him.
"C’mon… let’s go…" JC said
"But… Isn’t he going to call me in?" she asked.
"No, I’ve got your exams"
23:03 pm
"What is it honey? You’ve been so quiet the whole day…" she said hugging him.
"Nothing… I mean… it’s just…" he looked at her
Nyah look down. She knew what was happening. It was impossible not to realize she was sick, the alcohol levels on her body were notorious.
"This is for the exams, right?" Nyah asked.
"Yes… Nyah… I… I wanna know… you…" JC covered his face with his hands.
"Josh… I… I am so sorry…" she said taking one of his hands.
"Why you didn’t tell me?"
"We were mad with each other… I thought you’ll get worried… and…"
"Nyah… you have a serious disease…"
"I know… I’ve been trying to stop it…"
"Since… How much… How much time you been… like this…?" he looked at her.
"Since Katie is three… maybe before that…" she said looking down.
"So… you’ve trying to quit it… is it working?"
"Kind of…"
"You have to promise me you’re not doing it anymore… If you keep drinking the only way to solve this will be a rehab center…"
"No… I couldn’t be away from the kids…"
"Then… you have to quit it…"
"I’ll try… I promise"
JC rest his head on his hands… and started moving it slowly…
"What… what is it?" she asked.
"This is my entire fault, Nyah…" he said without looking her, "I was so stupid… If I… If I haven’t done what I did with Kyra… this will never happen…"
"Please don’t say that…"
"I’m so stupid, Nyah, can you see it?" he looked at her.
"No, you’re not… Joshua… we all made mistakes… and you’re not an exception or either me…"
"Nyah…" he said hugging her
"What?"
"Please forgive me…"
"I already did it…"
"No… not for being with Kyra… for causing you this…"
"It’s ok…"
"No it’s not… you’re hurting yourself… and all because of me…" he said crying.
"Honey… don’t cry… I promise… I’ll be ok… we’ll get over this…"
JC sighted while he dry the tears that were on his cheeks and eyes. Then he smiled at her.
“Yeah… we will…”
Chapter 16
August 9th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
19:18 pm
The day before this one, JC had celebrated his birthday with Nyah, their children and some friends, they had an awesome celebration and everyone was happy. But that happiness ended completely the next day.
"Nyah! It’s enough!" JC screamed at Nyah in the kitchen.
"But Joshua…"
"No buts… I gave you a chance, but you didn’t do your part!"
"I can’t help it… Joshua, please forgive me"
"No, I won’t… we’re going to the rehab center today"
"Joshua, no… please, I beg you… give me another chance…"
"No, Nyah… there’s no more chances, you’re hurting yourself, don’t you see it?"
JC stopped talking and sighted when she started to cry.
"Nyah, sweetie, don’t cry… listen to me, this is the best thing… trust me…"
"JC… I can’t be away from the kids…" she said crying, "and less away from you…"
"I’ll go there… everyday…"
"But… that’s impossible… you work all day and all the time… and…" she stopped.
"No sweetie… I’ll ask for more vacations, I think its time to get some rest from fame and music, I have to start thinking in my family"
"Josh…"
"Now… let’s pack your stuff"
August 15th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
17:27 pm
"Hi sweetie…" JC said entering Nyah’s bedroom, "how are you today?"
"Josh… hi"
"Hi mommy" Katie said running to her mother.
"Hi my little girl, have you been a good girl?"
"Yes… of course I have”
"And you Matt?"
"Me too… as always" the kid said smiling, "yesterday we went to the pool with uncle Justin"
"Oh… good…"
"Nyah…" JC said
"Yes?…"
"How are you?"
"Fine, Josh…"
"I’m sorry I didn’t came here yesterday, but the kids were so excited with pool thing"
"Don’t worry… It’s been hot these last days" She looked outside, “Are you coming tomorrow?”
“Yes, of course, yesterday I almost for not seeing you"
"Almost?"
"Yeah, then I saw Katie… and… she looks like you… that made feel better…"
"I love you, Josh" she said smiling
"I love you too"
December 24th, 2005
Orlando, Florida
17:26 pm
"Nyah, I’ve got a surprise for you!" JC said hugging her.
"But Josh… tomorrow is Christmas… not today…"
"I know… but you can take it as an anticipated gift"
"What is it?"
"Well… a couple of days ago I talked with your psychiatrist and he told me you can got out of here…"
"Really?!" she asked with happiness.
"Yes, so let’s pack your things… ‘Cause you’re spending Christmas at home… with me and the kids…"
JC hugged her and she responded the hug. After that they packed and then they went to the house. There were Matt, Katie, Justin and Chris.
Chris was married now, and he had a kid named James, he had the same age than Katie. Justin was still single; at least that was what he always said. That night they all spent Christmas together.
Chapter 17
January 1st, 2006
Orlando, Florida
22:37 pm
"Nyah… I need to talk to you" JC said sitting next to her on the couch.
"What is it?"
"Are the children sleeping?"
"Yes…"
"Well… you’ll see… I‘ve been watching you constantly this week… I know it sounds awful… you know… it’s kinda like I’ve been… spying you…"
Nyah looked down and remained quiet.
"Listen… that day I talked with your psychiatrist, he told me that you could go out… he didn’t say forever… it was for testing you… to see how your addiction was. But, during the week…" she interrupted him
"No… Josh! Please don’t put me back in that place!!" she said starting to cry.
"Nyah… it’s for your own good…" he said taking her face in his hands.
"No… I don’t want to… please don’t take me to rehab again…you don’t know how it feels to be there!! Please… I beg you… don’t do it…" Nyah said hugging him.
"Nyah… you’re still addicted to alcohol… and that rehab center is the only thing that can help you quit it…"
"No… please… hide every bottle we have… just… don’t take me away from you and the kids again…" she said crying.
JC just kept hugging her and started caressing her back. Nyah still couldn’t leave alcohol, and during the week JC saw her drinking.
JC couldn’t let her hurt herself like that anymore, but what he didn’t realize was that the entire situation was hurting her… she wanted and needed to be with him and the kids. Finally he convinced her to go to the rehab center again.
January 3rd, 2006
Orlando, Florida
15:57 pm
Nyah entered the room followed by JC and their children. JC left her suitcase near the bed. He checked her suitcase to see what she had packed, though in the center they also checked it.
"Ok… so… you’re gonna be ok, right?" JC asked to Nyah
"Yes… I’ll be ok… don’t worry"
"Well… the movie Katie wants to see starts at 5… so… we better get going…"
"Okay"
"Dad… can I talk to mom before we go?" Matt asked
"Sure…"
"In... private…" the kid said staring at his father.
“Mm... yeah... ok…" JC said going outside the room with Katie.
"What is it honey?" Nyah asked.
"Mom… I just... want to say I’m sorry…"
"I’m sorry for what, honey?" she asked hugging him.
"’Cause... I was such a fool…"
"What are you talking about Matt?"
"Mom… I know that what I’m about to tell you happened a long time ago… and I also know that… you and dad have no problems now... but... you know... I need to load off my mind"
"What did you do Matt?"
"I hid something really important…" Matt said looking down.
"What did you hid?"
"Mom… I knew about dad and Kyra…" he stopped.
"What?"
"I saw them…"
"You did?"
"Yes, once... it was a day when dad drop us there at Kyra’s house… I saw them kissing…"
"Why you didn’t tell me?"
"Well…" he remained quiet again.
"Matt… I’m not mad at you, really... just tell me why…"
"I didn’t say it because I didn’t want you to fight with dad, but I didn’t know you knew about it… and well… then... there was nothing I could do to fix it"
"Honey... don’t worry about it anymore… that’s past... so we better forget about that, now, I want you to call your father so I can say goodbye... you have to go the cinema with Katie, remember?"
"Yeah, ok... I’ll call him"
JC entered to the room again with Katie after Matt called them.
"Ok… so secrets are over?" JC asked
"It wasn’t a secret" she said, "Come here…"
JC closed to her and hug her.
"Sweetie… I’m not coming tomorrow… Lance wants to show me some demos in the afternoon… so... I’m coming on wednesday"
"Ok…" she said smiling, "Take care of them, ok?" she said about the children.
"Of course I will… they’re my life... and so are you"
"You take care too… specially of women…"
"Don’t start…"
"I won’t say anything else… I love you"
"I love you too, sweetie..." he said kissing her lips softly.
"Goodbye my little girl" Nyah said to Katie.
"Bye mommy"
"Be a good girl, listen to your father on everything and take care of you…" Nyah said, "and take care of your father of all women who want him... remember he’s mine"
"Okay…"
"Same for you, Matt"
"Leave it up to me"
After they left, Nyah opened his suitcase and took a notebook, a pen and then she started to write.
Matt had decided to tell her mother the thing about his father and Kyra because he felt it, it was a need, something like... an intuition.
Chapter 18
January 4th, 2006
Orlando, Florida
09:54 am
JC was deeply sleeping, he wasn’t worried about waking or getting up. Lance was coming in the afternoon, so there was no need.
In that moment, the phone rang.
"Yes?" JC said picking up still sleepy.
"Mr. Chasez?" somebody asked.
"Yes, he’s speaking, who is this?"
"William Parker… your wife’s psychiatrist"
"Oh… yes, what happened?"
"I need you to come immediately to the rehab center... "
JC sat on the bed.
"What?... Ok... I’m coming..."
The word "immediately" had scare him... Nyah did something...
He got up, woke up the children and called Justin to ask him if he could take care of them while he went to the rehab center.
10:52 am
"Hey Justin" JC said
"Hi, come in…"
"No don’t worry... I’m on a hurry, I’ll pick them up in a couple hours, please give them something for lunch if I’m not here at that time…"
"Yeah, don’t worry"
"And please... give Lance a call… tell them that I could not hear the demos today and that I will call him later"
"Ok, don’t worry about it, bye!"
JC said goodbye to his children and Justin, then he went quickly to his car and drove to the rehab center.
11:17 am
"Hi, Dr. William Parker called me"
"Are you Mr. Chasez?"
"Yes"
"Office 204, he’s waiting for you"
"Thanks"
He walked to the doctor’s office, knocked at the door and entered.
"Good morning Mr. Chasez"
"Good morning… what happened? Why did you call me?"
"I want you to come with me to Nyah’s room"
They went out of the office and went to Nyah’s room. She was not there.
"Where is Nyah?" JC asked.
"That is what I am going to explain" the psychiatrist said, "You will see… Nyah is not in the rehab center anymore, she is been taken away"
"What? Where? Why? What did she do?"
"Calm down Mr. Chasez" the doctor, said putting his hand on JC’s shoulder, "I need you to be calm"
"Ok… I’m calm… just tell me what happened" he said after taking a deep breath.
"Nyah… she commit suicide, Mr. Chasez" the psychiatrist said, "she is been taken to the hospital"
JC was shocked. What he did just said? That Nyah… commit suicide? No, that couldn’t be true, this was a joke… and definitely a bad one.
"Ok… can you stop joking, where is my wife?" he asked a little desperate
"She’s at the hospital" he said, "Look yourself, she didn’t unpack, the only thing we found unpack was a little knife, a notebook, a pen and a letter with your name" he said giving JC the letter, "you must go to the hospital now…"
"No… no… stop saying that" JC looked everywhere, "Where is she?" he asked now completely desperate.
"Mister Chasez, I beg you to calm down… look at the bed…"
JC turned around and saw her bed, all the sheets where red because of Nyah’s blood. It was in that moment that JC understood that this wasn’t a joke… it was real life… her psychiatrist was not lying.
13:03 pm
JC knocked at Justin’s apartment door. He was on the living room with the kids. He stood up and opened the door.
"Hey 'C" Justin said, "what happened?" he said when he saw JC’s face.
"I need you to come with me"
"Where? What happened?"
JC didn’t want to talk about it when he saw his children were looking at him.
"Let’s talk about it later… I have to bring the kids to Chris’s house or… I don’t know…"
"Don’t worry… Britney can take care of them"
JC looked at Britney.
"Brit, would you mind take care of them a couple of hours?" Justin asked
"No, not at all…"
"Thanks" JC said.
Justin closed the door and looked at JC.
"Are you with her again?" JC asked thinking for the first time in something else
"No… well… we’re trying… we’re not back again… " Justin said
"I see…"
"Now please… tell me what happened" Justin said
JC turned pale.
"Nyah… she… commit suicide…" JC said looking down and with a sad voice.
"What?!" Justin asked surprised.
"Yeah… Nyah killed herself… that’s why they called me…" JC said desperate
"But, JC, calm down, you can’t be that desperate… Matt and Katie can’t see like that… it wouldn’t be good for them"
"I know… but… tell me… what I’m supposed to do now?!" he said almost crying, "I can’t be without her…"
"Listen to me, JC… just… don’t think about that now… just… calm down and I’m gonna take you to the hospital, ok?"
"Thanks for coming with me, Justin…"
"No problem… now… let’s go…"
Justin drove to the hospital. JC was not able to do it anymore.
"What is that?" Justin asked when he saw an envelope on JC’s hands.
"A letter… Nyah wrote it to me…"
"Did you read it?"
"I can’t do it…"
"JC… don’t be afraid…" Justin said while he started to park the car, "You don’t have anything to loose… maybe just something to discover"
"Yeah… I know…"
"Ok, let’s go inside"
Both got out of the car and entered to the hospital, JC took a deep breath, he definitely did not wanted to ask where the morgue was, so Justin did it.
"Excuse miss, could you tell where the morgue is?"
"Yes, it’s at the end of that hallway" she said pointing it
"Thanks…"
They walked through the hallway and at the end of it there was a little sign who had the word "morgue" on it, the went inside.
"May I help you?" a woman said to Justin and JC.
"We’re here for Nyah Chasez" Justin said a little bit nervous.
"Ok… follow me"
They followed the women and went to a room where there was a stretcher, there was a body on it covered with a white sheet. Justin stood still; JC turned pale. None of them wanted to see her under that sheet… it was something frightening. Justin and the woman walked towards the stretcher. JC stood behind Justin.
"Is she Nyah?" the woman asked.
"Yes…" Justin said.
JC closed his eyes, this couldn’t be true… Nyah was there… in front of him… and dead. Justin looked at JC, he was so pale and it seems like he needed to cry urgently.
"I’ll leave you both alone" the woman said before she went out of the room.
"JC… are you ok?" Justin asked.
"How… can I be ok…?" he said looking at her.
JC caressed Nyah’s cheek, she was still warm. Justin stared at JC; he looked so sad and miserable. JC looked Nyah’s neck, she had a few cuts. How could she have done something like that? Didn’t she think about him when she killed herself? But all those answers were on the letter Nyah wrote… that letter that JC didn’t want to read.
"Look at her… how could she did this… kill herself… like this…" JC said a weak voice and looking at her.
"JC… do you want me to leave you alone?"
"No, don’t go Justin… I don’t wanna be alone…"
After a few moments JC discovered that Nyah’s body not only had cuts in her neck, but also in her hands and wrists.
"God… how could she… killed herself like this…" he said weakly again.
15:14 pm
Both went back to Justin’s apartment. JC was calmer; Justin spoke with him and try to calm him.
Britney opened the door’s apartment.
"Hey" she said
"Hi" Justin answered before he sighed, "Come in, JC"
JC entered the apartment and looked at Matt sitting on a couch. Matt noticed immediately that something bad had happened… and he knew it was her mother… Matt had that strange feeling the day before, he felt that something was going to happen, and… in fact, it did.
"Dad… what happened?" Matt asked
"We’ll talk at home" he said.
"Mm… okay…"
23:26 pm
That night JC slept with Katie and Matt on his bed. When Katie fell asleep, Matt spoke to his father, he wanted to know what happened.
"Now… are you gonna tell me what happened?" the kid asked
"Matt… it’s not easy to say…"
"What happened to mom?"
"How do you know is about your mother?"
"Yesterday… I had this weird feeling… that something was going to happen to her… besides… it’s easy to tell by your face this afternoon… what happened?"
"Matt… I know this is going to be hard for you… it is for me too… you mother… she… killed herself…" he said sadly and with tears in his eyes.
His son didn’t answer, he was just 10 years old and it was hard for him to believe it. JC noticed Matt started to cry and JC hugged him.
"Calm down, Matt, calm down…"
"Why Dad… Why? Why did she do it…?" he asked crying.
"I don’t know… I swear to God I don’t know…" he said, "But I do know that Katie doesn’t have to know it yet… she’s so young… and… I don’t want her to know now…"
"Yeah… I understand… don’t worry…"
Chapter 19
February 1st, 2006
Orlando, Florida
11:11 am
"JC, Chris called me a few moments ago, today is James birthday" Justin said, "he want us to come… you know… Matt, Katie, you and me".
"You go with the kids, I… I am not in the mood…" JC said discouraged.
"JC… you can’t be like that forever…"
"Justin, you don’t know how this feels!"
"But you don’t do anything… you’re only spending your time here… locked in your apartment… and you’re not even have the courage to say Katie what is going on… or open that fuckin’ letter…"
"That it’s not of your business"
"JC… it’s just a letter…"
"I’ll read it when I want" JC said without looking him, "Just take the kids to the party…"
"I will…" he said leaving the kitchen.
11:37 am
Katie entered to the kitchen.
"Daddy… are we going to James’s party today?"
"You’re going with Matt and your Uncle Justin…"
"But I wanna go with you…"
JC took her in his arms and sat her on one of the kitchen’s inns.
"You really want me to go with you?" he asked.
"Yes…"
"Well… then I guess I’ll go with you…" then he drank some coffee.
"Ok… hey dad… when are going to see mom?"
JC didn’t answer; he didn’t know what to say to her. Justin was right, JC was being a coward, which was the truth, and he did not have the courage to read that piece of paper, or tell Katie that Nyah wasn’t there anymore. JC stared at his daughter.
"Daddy… mom must be really angry with you for not going to see her…"
"I don’t think she’s angry…” he said
"Have you went to see her alone?" the girl asked.
"No… Katie… is just… mom is not here anymore…"
"I know, she’s at the hospital"
"No, my little princess, she’s not at the hospital either… mom is gone"
"She’s gone…? Where did she go? She didn’t even say goodbye…"
"Mom it’s not going back, honey…"
"Where is she…?"
"Hmm… she is… in heaven…" he said taking her on his arms.
"Heaven…? So… that means we’re not seeing her again…?"
"Oh no… you can see her every night… you just have to look outside your window and watch the sky… and the most shiny star you see that’s mom… and she will always be with you, with Matt and with me"
Justin entered the kitchen in that moment.
"Uncle Justin…" Katie said
"What is it, sweetheart?"
"Did you knew that mom went to heaven and now she is a shiny star"
Justin looked at JC. He hadn’t given her the best explanation about death, but she will understand better in the future. JC said no with his head to Justin.
"No, Katie I had no idea…" Justin said, "Is that true, JC?" he asked.
JC nodded.
February 2nd, 2006
Orlando, Florida
23:55 pm
They were a few minutes missing for February 3rd. JC couldn’t sleep… it had been a month since Nyah’s death, but he could not take her face out of his head, it wasn’t easy at all… he loved her so much. He wanted so badly to understand why she decided to kill herself, but the only answer that he could get was on the letter.
He sat on his bed, turned on the lamp on the nightstand and took the letter from the nightstand. His name was on the envelope, he opened it slowly and started to read.
"
January 3rd, 2006Josh:
I supposed you know what happened now that you’re reading this… and that is the reason of this letter.
I don’t want you think that I did this because I still thought that you were cheating me with Kyra, ‘cause I know you’re not. And I don’t want you to blame yourself because of this… the only guilty of this whole thing is me… and I want you to know that I believe that this is the best for you and the kids.
Josh, I wasn’t going to overcome my addiction, it was something impossible, and it was dangerous that for me not to quit it, besides, I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life locked here in this rehab center, it is too hard for me to be away from you and the children, I need love constantly, all day long… I realized that the last time I was here.
I hope you understand my reasons… and why I did it. I want to ask you to love very, very much our children, they love you so much and they’re gonna need you now… they don’t need me… they don’t need an alcoholic mother…
Josh, I know this is going to be hard for you, as well as is going to be for Matt and Katie, but you have to know that I loved you every moment, and of course I loved the kids too… I’ll always be there with you and the kids no matter what… I hope you forgive me for this.
Maybe what I’m about to write its going to sound a little funny… or crazy… but If you want to bring another woman in your life… it wouldn’t be a problem for me. You know… it will depend of Matt and Katie now, but I’m pretty sure they will want to see you happy.
Well… you know my reasons now; this is not your fault… it’s mine… for being so selfish and stupid… with you and me… you always loved me… and I didn’t see it when I was mad at you. Don’t worry for the pain you’re feeling now… I know it will pass soon and you’ll be ok.
What I want to tell you is that I love you with all my heart… and I hope you never forget me. I love you… and take care of yourself and the kids.
Nyah Chasez”
Tears were falling through JC’s cheek. That was her reason?! That stupid… addiction?! It was a stupid reason though. Justin knocked at the door in that moment.
"JC, are you awake?" he asked opening the door
"Justin…"
"May I come in?"
"Yeah… sure…"
"What happened…" he asked when he saw him crying
"She killed herself because... of her addiction…"
Justin didn’t know what to answer. He looked at JC’s hands, he was holding the letter. Then he understood everything... JC had decided to read Nyah’s letter.
It was sad what JC was saying, but there was nothing he can do now.
"'C… don’t be like that…" Justin said sitting next to him on his bed
"And what do you want me to do?!"
"You have to think positive... specially now... Matt and Katie can’t see you like this, it wouldn’t be good for them…"
"But... what a stupid reason... and everything is my fault…"
"Listen… this isn’t your fault, JC… you didn’t kill her… she took that decision… you have to respect it... besides, there was nothing you could do to stop her from doing it…"
"But it’s my fault…" he said looking the letter, "If I wouldn’t had something with Kyra none of this will be happening… we would be ok now…"
"But 'C… don’t blame yourself because of this… she forgave you…"
"So what... she killed herself anyway…"
Justin didn’t know what to say anymore. JC was convinced that all this was his fault… and in some facts... it was.
“What were you here, do you want to tell me something?” JC asked changing subject
“Yes... is about Matt...”
“What happened?”
In that moment Matt entered to JC’s bedroom with Katie.
"Did you tell him?" Matt asked.
"No… you’re safe... for now..." Justin said
JC looked at them confused. Then Katie noticed that his father had some tears in his cheeks and ran to him.
"Daddy… what happened?" she said hugging him
"Nothing, honey… I was just a little sad…" he said kissing her forehead
"So... do you want to know what this demon did?" Justin said in a funny way about Matt
Justin was trying to cheer up Justin.
"No… what did he did?"
"Well… you know I was sleeping really good when I heard someone entering to the room… I thought I was dreaming, but then... he climbed on top of the bed and started hitting me with a pillow repeatedly" Justin said, "He is a demon!"
JC smiled and looked at Matt. He was the reason why Nyah had come back to him. He understood something in that moment. He had a reason for living... his kids... they were his life now... and he has to be there for them…
This is the final chapter... hope you like it =)
Chapter 20
August 16th, 2023
Orlando, Florida
09:45 am
"How are you honey?" JC asked Katie while he server a cup of coffee
"Hum… I don’t know… a little bit weird… and SO nervous…"
"You have to relax… marriage is not big deal…" Justin said
"Justin… you don’t know what marriage mean... you’ve never been married… so... don’t say stupid thing" JC said a little bit mad.
"Ok JC… just don’t get mad… I was just kidding" he said smiling
Katie started to laugh.
"Remember when she was a little girl?" JC said hugging her daughter.
"Yeah" Justin said, "she was so pretty…"
"I was?" she asked
"Yeah... I don’t know what happened to you now…" he said joking
"Hey!" Katie complained
"You’re still beautiful, honey" JC said
"So JC… what are you feeling about becoming part of the Kirkpatrick family"
JC covered his face with his hands and started to say no with his head, Justin started to laugh.
Yes. Katie was getting married that afternoon with James, Chris’s son.
August 17th, 2023
Orlando, Florida
04: 24 am
JC arrived to his apartment, where he was living with Justin since Nyah died. Now Matt and Katie move out, and they were living alone.
"Now we are completely alone…" Justin said, "Isn’t sad?"
“Yeah… but I’m happy for them… they’re enjoying their lives…" JC said, "What made me feel sad is that Nyah didn’t see this, you know… I’m sure she would love to see them..."
"You still think about her, ah?"
"I can’t help it"
"But it’s been so long, don’t you think?"
"I know…"
"We should find a couple of women, should we?"
"I can’t…"
"Why not? We’re still young to do it"
"Maybe you feel young…"
"Oh C’mon, JC… you’re not old when you’re 47o"
"I’m not saying I’m old… but I’m not so young anymore"
"Let’s consider ourselves as young adults"
"I’m not in that range of age... but, deal…" JC said, "Anyway… I can’t be with somebody else... because of my age... it because of Nyah…"
"You still love her…"
"Do you wanna know when I’ll stop loving her?" he looked at Justin, "When the sun doesn’t shine anymore, when there’s snow on summer, when there are midget high…-" Justin interrupted JC.
"Ok, ok, ok… I get it... I understand…" he said, "hey, you wanna know what I found the other day?"
"What?"
"Some songs from one of our first albums... No Strings Attached, remember?"
"Oh yeah…"
"I found some songs and the lyrics, don’t you wanna sing a little... you know... to remember old times?" Justin suggested
"It’s 4:30 am?"
"Who cares! We live alone now"
"Fine... ok... show them"
Justin entered his room and gave JC the lyrics while he put the CD on the radio
"What track do you wanna hear?" Justin asked while JC read the lyrics.
"'That's when I'll Stop loving you'… please"
"That one?"
"Yeah… now that I’m reading the lyric… it kinda identify what I feel… it’s beautiful… its like… you’re swearing to a woman that you’re gonna love her forever… and that’s how I feel about Nyah…"
"Uhm… ok… here it is…"
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
Yeah, that's when I'll stop loving you
That's when I'll stop loving you
I'm sure you've heard these words before
I know it's hard
For you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart
Is scared of breaking again
But you've gotta believe me
I'll never leave you
You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love
When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh You know then baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you
That's when I'll stop loving you… yeah
As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found
In these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one
I'll ever give his heart to
What I'm trying to say is
Nothing will change this
There be no time you won't find me there (find me there)
'Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my loveWhen winter comes in summer…
And when this world doesn't turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining'Til then I'm gonna be by your side
Gonna be loving forever
Every day of my life… baby
Well you know then baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer…
That's when I'll stop babe
I'll stop babe
Loving you…
"You know what Justin?” JC said after the song finish
“What?”
“The only thing I know… and I’m sure about it… is that… I’ll never stop loving her…" he said smiling.
The End