Author's Response:
i want to be a psychologist, so things like this are important for me. i don't want to glammor suicide up, but it is something many people want to do and a lot of them aren't noticed when they show off signs. i wrote a research paper on teen suicide.
i just have a nack for writing really depressing stories =] that shouldn't be something to be proud of, but if it makes the reader feel something, i did my job.